Well we did get it, that last blast of winter, with 3 days of rain, freezing rain and snow. I spent most of it inside. Once it cleared up I went and helped my best friend with her Mom, she had 3 broken vertebra's and has just done it again, back in hospital waiting surgery, I'm not sure how much more she can take, she begs each day for that needle she saw on the news, just to end things. I feel so bad for them, but it is a process they are willing to look at. Soon I hope.
I made a few changes this past week. I blocked 4 people on Facebook that I should have done long ago, one being my ex. I also have changed my status to separated, something he did a few days after I left in Dec. I didn't do it hoping we would get back together, I needed to finish grieving the relationship first and stop listening to him tell me it was all my fault, it wasn't and yes I know it takes 2, I was the one enabling him to treat me the way he was. I had to realize I don't deserve that and deserve love and respect, for who I am.
I went to the trailer last Friday and put allot of stuff away preparing for opening day, its going to be allot of work, but truthfully I always did most of it myself, so I will get by with a little help from my friends. Once I'm all set up I'm good there till fall. Something I am looking forward to is reading and getting back to painting, maybe I will even try kayaking this summer. I've been going to physio and trying to rebuild muscles that I had lost with surgery. I am also looking into a mini elliptical machine,
I'm finding walking is so painful on my feet, at least it would be easier on all my joints. Maybe the beginning of the new me.
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