So when I returned to Australia on June 30, 2002, discovering the gambling, and also that Charlie was on dating websites with a picture I had taken of him on my second visit to see him. I felt pretty heart broken, what should I do. I found a picture called ancient mariner on his computer, I thought that was strange, but remembered him helping a mate of his get on a dating website, could I be right. So I started googling the name and guess what I found him. I created a fake name and email and found his profile, the things he put that he liked to do during sex was a bit shocking as I had seen none of this in our relationship. I quickly learned that he craved attention. He said he created it just to get the nice comments on it.
He of course promised to delete it and to get help for his gambling, he asked me to stay and give him another chance. He promised that the intimacy in our relationship would return. It never did.
Every 6 months it would come up, we tried counselling, there was never an answer as to why he was treating me like this.
This went on for 16 years to the point that I just felt like a room mate, cook and cleaner.
I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2008, I had a right mastectomy at the time and a left one in 2012. I have not had reconstruction, I've never felt well enough to endure the major surgery it would take to give me them. I had a pretty rough go of treatment 6 chemo and 25 radiation. I never felt fully comfortable with exposing myself to Charles as I felt it only made our intimacy problems worse. He never asked to see them he never touched them.
I felt I could not continue in this relationship any longer, he never gave me the attention I deserved.
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