Curves Here I Come

November 3, 2017
I backed away from my blog for a while, it had been along time since I had felt I had something to say. Life gets busy and our lives sometimes take a turn we don't expect. We are still doing the summers, we usually go to Canada in May and back to Australia in October.
Last year was different, we arrived back to Australia October 1st 2017 as we had a wedding to attend on Norfolk Island. If we hadn't of had the wedding I would have stayed in Canada, I was feeling lost, anxious and had spent the summer talking to a councilor. I felt like I deserved so much more from my husband, emotionally and physically. And the situation had been going on for many many years. 
We talked and decided we should try counseling in Australia. 
After the wedding, I had a call in early November that my nephew Chris had passed away suddenly from an Aneurysm, its a hereditary medical problem in our family. I decided to fly home to Canada for the funeral and to help my niece deal with the shock of loosing her husband at 45. My Mom took ill after the funeral and I stayed to help with her, then my grandson got pneumonia for the first time, he had it several more times during the winter. I decided to stay in Canada, have my hand surgery, help with Oliver (my grandson) as well as my daughter through her major surgery in March.
This would give my husband time to see a councilor and try to sort out his issues. I enjoyed my time with family. I agreed to come back to Australia this year in hopes that we could save our marriage.
I was given a book by a friend this summer and I have found the daily readings have helped me alot to learn to look after myself, not to take on issues of my husbands, like him sneaking around smoking all summer, I'm learning that its not always my issue and to let go and let god. Breath.
So I am going back to curves to work on myself, I need to continue my fitness journey, get stronger, fitter, for me.
I will attempt to write more often.