October 28, 2019
Well I did it, survived my first day at the gym, I was nervous, but pushed the nerves aside and walked in as if I had been going for ages. I've recorded my start weight and measurements.
I did 15 minutes on the Elliptical and 15 on the treadmill, I did lat pull downs, tomorrow I will make a note of what weights I did, Leg press I started out at 50 and went up to 75 for 40 total.chest press and free weight, working biceps, triceps and shoulders. I took an 8lb ball and did waist work, lots of stretching as well.
Its a start, I will aim for 5 days a week. I still walk alot so that won't change, but will enhance what I do at the gym, I may try to talk to one of the trainers and see what they can help with.
I accomplished alot yesterday as it rained, so I hung lots of pictures sorted things in the spare room, just need to hang curtains in there.
Having lunch tomorrow with my friend Russel, looking forward to seeing him.
Other friend decided since he had his blood work done saturday morning it would be ok to go on a bender, I guess its true, leopards can't change their spots.
October 26, 2019
Well where to begin, the last 2 weeks have been busy and at times still drama filled.
I spoke to a friend about the fella I have been helping, she said to run, he will never stay sober, I know I don't need this in my life, I've made a difference to him, I don't know where this will lead and for now were just friends. I stayed at his place for the last week to be there as support for his withdrawal, his slip up has only been 12 days so all in all its not to bad, except his liver wasn't coping at all and he turned jaundice. He redid his blood work and his bilirubin was 250. His specialist told him to go to Emergency asap, so off we went, 9.5 hours later we came out with maybe what he needed to hear, he is in early stages of cyrosis of the liver, he can never drink again unless he has a death wish, also the steroids he miss used have also caused damage to his liver. He has been sober for a week and a day.
I came home Thursday as I have things to do. He hugged me and said he truly believes I was his guardian angel sent to make him see just what he was doing to himself. He said he didn't think there were such kind people still on this earth, I pull no punches and tell it as I see it, I told him what he was doing was killing himself, and his children did not deserve to stand by and watch what he was doing to himself. His Son has thanked me numerous times for helping his father. He said I just couldn't deal with it right now, poor kid had exams at college and needed to concentrate, I told him it shouldn't be his issue, he and his sister should be reason enough for his Dad to be a better parent and person.
So today I look forward to spending a few hours with my grandson, he is such a beautiful child, so loving and easy going, tells me several times during his visit that he loves me. We are going to be painting and baking today, he is the calm in my recent storm.
I will be visiting my friend tomorrow, he is making me dinner after me being there for him the last 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to a dinner prepared by someone else. What will be will be, one day at a time.
I also joined the gym across the road from me I'm looking forward to starting a routine again, I've missed this in my life and its how this blog started in the first place. Maybe I'll post more often now.
October 14, 2019
Well I've moved into my new place, I've rented a 2 bedroom apartment not far from my daughter's.
Some days are over whelming, I get so tired out. It's worth it, my place has really come together. It's not easy starting over, it has taken me almost 2 years to get to this point.
A year ago I went to Scotland and helped a family that needed some TLC after the Mom had 2 cerebral bleeds. I still believe I was saved from death from cancer to do good, to help others.
During this flight I befriended a man and his son from England, I took care of them in Halifax for 24 hours, we are still friends today.
I spent the summer helping an elderly gentleman from Pennsylvania, enjoy his last summer in Canada, we tore motors apart, put them back together, I cleaned for him, shopped for him, spent time fishing with him. He always said Thank You, gave me a few dollars and was so happy when he went home a few weeks ago knowing he had a great last summer in Canada. He has been coming here since he was 14.
I have sold my summer trailer and will live in the city full time now. There are lots of things to do here, and I hope to do some travelling as well. I have a gf here and we are planning on taking yoga class together, we worked together for many years and have always kept in touch even when I lived in Australia. I do need to get out and meet new people. It has taken me nearly 2 years to learn to believe in myself and realize I deserve to be happy and find someone to spend time with, I've met a couple of fellows that have turned out to be good friends, we enjoy each other's company, but nothing serious.
I recently met someone and loved reading his bio, he had messaged me first, unfortunately he has become another project, I realized on my second visit that he had some issues and I was the one to pull it all out of him, I truly believe he is a decent man and has great values under the layers of addiction, first to steroids, then to alcohol an addiction from his past, I've given him support this week, filled his fridge with food, cleaned his home up, did his laundry, encouraged him to reach out to his Councillors, which he has, his liver enzymes are through the roof, I got rid of his steroids, he has spoken to his son, his Mom and ex wife, he has the support, oh and did I mention he is also Bipolar 1. I can not be this mans crutch, I can be a friend, I was put in his path for a reason, why I'm not sure unless its just to help him see his self worth, I'm drawing back, the ball is in his court. I've asked his son to keep me posted on his recovery. I really can't do anything else, I think I've done enough.
I'm sure there is someone out there that would like to meet me, that isn't full of drama, lol I have lots to offer, I can be more than a Councillor.
Here is to change for the ones that need it.
