Well I've moved into my new place, I've rented a 2 bedroom apartment not far from my daughter's.
Some days are over whelming, I get so tired out. It's worth it, my place has really come together. It's not easy starting over, it has taken me almost 2 years to get to this point.
A year ago I went to Scotland and helped a family that needed some TLC after the Mom had 2 cerebral bleeds. I still believe I was saved from death from cancer to do good, to help others.
During this flight I befriended a man and his son from England, I took care of them in Halifax for 24 hours, we are still friends today.
I spent the summer helping an elderly gentleman from Pennsylvania, enjoy his last summer in Canada, we tore motors apart, put them back together, I cleaned for him, shopped for him, spent time fishing with him. He always said Thank You, gave me a few dollars and was so happy when he went home a few weeks ago knowing he had a great last summer in Canada. He has been coming here since he was 14.
I have sold my summer trailer and will live in the city full time now. There are lots of things to do here, and I hope to do some travelling as well. I have a gf here and we are planning on taking yoga class together, we worked together for many years and have always kept in touch even when I lived in Australia. I do need to get out and meet new people. It has taken me nearly 2 years to learn to believe in myself and realize I deserve to be happy and find someone to spend time with, I've met a couple of fellows that have turned out to be good friends, we enjoy each other's company, but nothing serious.
I recently met someone and loved reading his bio, he had messaged me first, unfortunately he has become another project, I realized on my second visit that he had some issues and I was the one to pull it all out of him, I truly believe he is a decent man and has great values under the layers of addiction, first to steroids, then to alcohol an addiction from his past, I've given him support this week, filled his fridge with food, cleaned his home up, did his laundry, encouraged him to reach out to his Councillors, which he has, his liver enzymes are through the roof, I got rid of his steroids, he has spoken to his son, his Mom and ex wife, he has the support, oh and did I mention he is also Bipolar 1. I can not be this mans crutch, I can be a friend, I was put in his path for a reason, why I'm not sure unless its just to help him see his self worth, I'm drawing back, the ball is in his court. I've asked his son to keep me posted on his recovery. I really can't do anything else, I think I've done enough.
I'm sure there is someone out there that would like to meet me, that isn't full of drama, lol I have lots to offer, I can be more than a Councillor.
Here is to change for the ones that need it.
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